A chapter closes...

As the tiger year drew to an end, it also marks an end to the first chapter of my working life. the last one month was full of contradictions, pacing back and forth of my decision. it was a tough decision, leaving behind a clearly defined career path, leaving behind the attractive salary and leaving behind the familiarity. but each time i took an hesitant step back, i move forward more confidently. i came into audit with the intention to stay for 3 years, with the intention to learn as much as I can. this dream could no longer be achieved but i have discovered my purpose in working. sometimes i wonder if i had called it quits without trying hard enough to the stay with the firm, but i realized i no longer want to stay with the firm as the culture is not ideal.

much as i enjoyed the work, i do not want to end up always tearing from stress and unhappiness over it. i do not want to work with a team with so much miscommunications during peak due to piling workload. instead of revolving my life around work, i want to be in more control of my time and journey of life. Having chosen to stop chasing the banking dream, I want to be in an industry i have an interest in. lastly, i realize i do not want to be so focus over financial statements and compliance but to approach it from a more business perspective. looking at the management letter points raised by myself, i do feel ashamed for bringing up such petty issues. yes, i have defined the path of my future journey and is working towards there.

on the last day, i teared when i drafted my final email to my engagement, biding them goodbye. recently, i had really long chats with my senior due to the uncountable times she came crying up to me. seeing her cry tugs at my heartstring knowing that her right-hand man is no longer able to assist her further. nonetheless, we have completed and rounded up almost all work thankfully. leaving the team at the crux handicapped them greatly, nonetheless, i left on amicable terms with everyone.