only 1 thing need to cause one to be unhappy. even the thousand things that make you happy doesn't cover up for that one thing. self-reflection.

oops a bit late. christmas celebration in hall! got christmasy atmostphere! nice cosy session and MJ! lolz learnt quite a lot but still blur...ha...

swans. don't know y, i jus like them *smilez*

spreading its wings.

pari's masterpieces! really nice and showed your artistic talents!

thanks girls! for being so sweet and making presents! val surprised us all with cookies and jellies! surprises :) touched by all the homemade items! picnic idea was great! *smilez* food and games to spend the afternoon. learnt 2 games. thanks pari for bringing and CLUEDO and company is fun despite the weather and my lousy mood :) it wasn't a fantastic day yet the ppl ard me made me smilez and feel fortunate.

lousy was an understatement. i deserve it. perhaps i have overstretched myself. yet irony has to present itself.

the young hp! one of the few young photos i have access to now...

currently my fav! cos got the blur blur yet pretty pretty look....wahahaha....i a bit thick-skin but quite cute maz...*smilez*

been a busy weekend. fri: workout day cum relaxation. sat: farms visiting and bbq. felt like a primary school kid going on an excusion trip, excited and happy! sun: family dinner and hall christmas party! really had the atmostphere. mon: attempt at kite-flying.

thinking out loud. happy. contented. 'take things slowly' cos like a kid in a naive world where love story is like a fairytale, innocence is all that is known. a little fear has been cast yet it was an innocent fear. maybe it takes jus a little time to put aside the fears...

national treasure.
nice movie if you are one who are fascinated by hunting of treasures and understanding links obtained from clues. interesting gadgets.

Mr Magorium's wonder Emporium.
magical story. came out donno wat to think. its not an excellent movie, yet it isn't exactly lousy either. plot simple. believe in yourself. interesting toys though...

concluded i m a lousy movie critic. no matter wat show, i'll always have some takeaways. badminton was a much required workout! though short, yet i did sweat out. better than nothing ba...haiz now i m craving for many food! milkshake. oreo cheesecake. bwa gua. ice-cream. shall control!

personal reflections. some people know what they want, others are still searching. some ppl fight hard to get what they want, others wait. lady luck doesn't always shine upon us yet those are the moments we learnt most. at those moments, gentlemen perserverance is smiling upon us. laughter and smiles will always be the best medicine in all scenarios. but don't forget to thank both lady luck and gentlemen perserverance upon learning the joy and wonders of the world :) always listen yet don't forget to speak out. thoughts are hanging in my mind, yet i can't exactly pinpoint them. maybe just random thoughts floating ard, maybe they haven't solidified. i feel like i have jus thrown out a chunk of rubbishish stuff! lolz....

carrom inter-hall games.

haha first time i represented in recreational games. it's a challenge and a totally different experience ba. must say, yes i did enjoy the games. personally didn't do very well, nonetheless thought today's game was probably quite spectacular. yet it was a real pity we lost cos we both played very well. scored many nice ones, even those in difficult positions. haiz and we lost cos i was careless!! missed a seater! which determines either a win or a lose...*sigh* know i shouldn't be whining here, nonetheless really felt it was a real pity cos both of us were on form totally! probably the best form of the 3 days of matches...perhaps enjoying the game would be the greatest satisfaction derived. and having such a great partner whom i can rely upon whenever i m chui...lolz think we worked really well tgt! :)

this holiz has really taken a turn. no longer sian le. in fact, had quite a sense of achievement ba. nv knew my caram can make it one, until i played the many many rounds of caram. thanks to gh, been to quite a couple of places i really wanna go. and more coming up!! yeah yeah so happy when i see my committments becoming lesser and lesser...:)

christmas coming! and a new yr...*smilez*

mind cafe! super funny and and fun. using all the phases to describe...nick for val...merd's fav animal etc etc...haha..we share lots of experiences tgt! :) laughed a lot and sure woke me up for the day!
metta camp-12-14 dec

my group's jelly making session! looks good and sure taste good too! haha so proud, at least better than my own experimentation!

my fellow group leaders! qiong kuan-high, smiley and bubbly leader, sean-super entertaining with compassion leader! great leader that every kid loves...haha and entertained fellow gp leaders during meals too! Jie yin-demure and really sweet and gentle. girls love her patience etc...all of them are wonderful leaders :)

haha one of the few animals i captured during the trip...giraffes..

sean posing with 'grandma' part of our gp's skit...tweety bird and syvester

group 2- high school musical! a wonderful group who listens and follows instructions. a really wonderful and special bunch of kids...each had their own strengths...

one of my fav students! azrin and raman! woo 2 yrs in my group! lolz making lots of ppl jealous! whahaha...they are really obedient and willing to assist us anytime looking out of the rest of the group members. azrin is really funny and entertaining while raman is shuai and always follows our directions! i think the 2 of them are really nice kids...i'll miss them lots

another xiao shuai ge...quite obedient too!

oops a malay kid that i accidentally spoke in chinese too. sorry to such a smiley yet obedient boy...a pity that i didn't chat more with you! :)

pretty girl! sweet and demure little kid that sure melts many hearts...

the one that gave all of us a morning call...

chaosy...so hard to get her to take photos with all of us. yet in the end she relented *smilez*

they are a bunch of talented kids. with the right education and opportunities, 2 of them even had the experience to enter the special olympics and even won medals! a pity that i didn't manage to transfer the photos from my phone...

jeremy! talked much more to us this yr! he remembers us and even made an identity for me when i m not even in his group! thanks boy!

the 2 girls who ran ard lots preparing and manage to get the activities going...jelly making, pictionary, treasure hunt etc etc...

a little reflection

once again there was a sstisfaction upon completion of the camp successfully. the only pity wasn't being able to interact with the kids as much as we would like to have. also couldn't join in a lot of games as the preparation took up quite a lot of time. nonetheless the little time i spent with the group, i enjoyed myself tremendously. once again the kids reach down to my heart and made me realize jus how much they require help. this time round, i am touched not only by the kids but by the volunteers as well. for each of them put in the heart to care for those kids. humanity is still all around. knowing that the kids enjoyed the games also brought immerse satisfaction to us...:)

looking ard us, there are so many people who require the help of us. these special kids have a pure heart and a simple mind. interacting with them, they made us forget just wat rat races are all about. they made us realise the simple things that would content us. yes not only they will miss us. we will miss them too. they taught us as much as we taught them. each smile that this kids gave us, it came from their heart. wat one volunteer told me was: as long as you treat them nice, they would treat you jus as nice. all i wanna say to the kids are: thank you. thank you for leaving us with so much memories and thank you for making us smile with all the simple things u have done. all of them are so willing to see us smile for them too. each and everyone of them is special. its a camp that made my hoilz so meaningful. overall all the lack of sleep, camp preparation was worth it...:) enjoyed myself totally...

finally i have to say: thank you for coming down with kit kats. the kids love them lots! thank you for the heart and the thought. though it was a short stay, i hope you enjoyed yourself and perhaps had some meaningful take away. *smilez*

i look at all my activities planned. yet there isn't exactly one activity that i really look forward to. why. where did all my enthusiam went? somehow its one holiz where there isn't exactly one thing i wanna do. at least last yr, i wanted to go sentosa rather badly but the weather sure spoiled my plans many times. until i gave up..haha this sem, i donno. with the unpredictable weather, maybe it is better this way.

i think i still prefer sunny days. cos bright and sunny days sure brighten up one's mood too. rainy days make me donno wat i can do. wanted to take a stroll ard my hse alone, yet walking with an umbrella with potentially wet slippers doesn't appeal to me at all. had this sudden urge to drench myself in the heavy rain, feeling raindrops splatter upon me. yet i have no wish to fall sick. haha maybe i'll consider doing that one day when i m in a totally lousy mood. think it will definately make me feel better. wahahaha maybe this is a different way from drowning oneself in sorrows through drinking. the other option i considered was jus watching the heavy rain fall through the windows. always remember childhood stories where one can observe people caught in the rain while one is comfortably settled in the house. warm and cosy. yet this is not feasible either cos 1) i can't see many ppl out from my window since its relatively sheltered and covered from the main road 2) it is not pouring continuously either. concluded that maybe this the storybook image doesn't exist in singapore.

maybe i should change my perception. i M looking forward to my holiz! IT's HOLIDAYS! muahahahaha...look the camp nxt week is going to let me immerse myself in community service, engaging myself with kids and i'll learn to count my blessings :) and the season of joy and a new yr is approaching! we shld always embrace ourselves for a better yr ahead. take this holiz to love the people ard you. take this golden time to enjoy each minute. afterall these are precious moments *smilez* alright i m feeling way much better!

ps: sorrie this is a confusing entry where my thoughts changed in a minute. *smilez* i think typing out your thoughts sometimes do help a lot! esp typing positive mindset!

m i really doing things i want? or doing things so that others wld be happy...but i donno wat i want cos i jus want others to be happy

i realized i have learnt to take priorities in life. each time, we have different priorities, it's only a matter of which we are willing to sacrifice for. most of the time, we have to weigh each of their importance. though i felt apologetic, nonetheless i made a choice to spend where my heart would be much more at ease with. n i knew i made a choice i wanted.

the special bunch of gers who nv fail to make me smile and laugh! haha this time, not much acc stuff...and everybody's company and catching up was so comfy! been a long time since we are all out feeling so relaxed! haha but somehow everytime will laugh until my face muscles cramp! i miss all of you lots...wish we had more time to spend tgt! merd! thanks for your christmas cards too!! :) lolz had to even plan our nxt outing 1 mth in advance...jus shows how hard it is to meet up! wellz, 21st will definately be left for you all for workout-haha once in a yr occassion now...

thanks girls for your present! haha eh it's really v useful and nice! just that some of them are a little bright...lolz nonetheless i'll try to make use of all...:) and of course for the choco ice-cream cake! thanks for always remembering and the belated birthday celebration. overall the company was the most impt :)