enchanted. it's a movie that brings out a what a girl dreams for since young. happily ever after. once in a while, each of us wanna escapes into the world of fantasy and dreams. a wonderful movie. didn't expect the movie to reach into my heart. wat left me with the deepest impression was how the girl, with her fantasy desires, affected the 21st century guy through her pureness at heart. beautiful soundtracks too!

Carrie Underwood lyrics - Ever Ever After
Storybook endings
Fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside
We wanna believe they still do
In our secretest heart
Its our favorite part of the story
Let's just admit we all wanna make it to

Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away

Start a new fashion
Wear your heart on your sleeve
Sometimes you reach what's realest by making believe
Unafraid, Unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you

Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you its not smart
Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart believe in ever after

No wonder your heart feels its flying
Your head feels its spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted
You just might break through to

Ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever afterMaybe its just one wish awayYour ever ever afterEver Ever Ever Afteroh Ever Ever After

Jon McLaughlin lyrics - So Close
You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

christmasy feeling was all around! christmas trees and lightings. overall, a day escaped into the world of fantasy :)

christmas tree at vivo

white christmas tree at mount faber.

enchanted garden. really beautifully taken isn't it!

enchanted walkway.

a beautifully lit heart. this season, i m going to love lights instead and marvel over the beauty of lights brightening up the things ard us.

it's finally ooooover!! horray horray n horray. been waiting so long for the day to come. though somehow i think this time round, its all very chui, but i think i have worked hard! so time to relax. at least till results are out then face the consequences. double spec, high chance of dropping...

this holiz is going to be a time for catching up again! yup yup not forgetting my promises :) in the midst of exams, was missing a couple of ppl all of a sudden! think i haven't had a proper chat with you all for super long le. sorrie bout that, time to catch up! miss talking to pari, xiu and all your teases, cheelz and val besides sch work, xinyi and wanli for the missed dinner date, NADZ promised to meet you after exams, sirong, minrui etc etc! rrraaa badminton, lunches, dinners, chit-chat, heart to heart talks, laughters, i miss all those with you all! will manage my time to catch up with all and yet keep my promise of my highest priority.

holiz plan: a short getaway, metta camp, ih...and some random plans here and there. this time round, i m going to enjoy my holiz totally! no work=no money. but i'll save and just relax while enjoying myself :)

'a SMILE is a curve that sets everything straight and wipes wrinkles away! so here is a smile from me :D' ~quoted

because of this, no matter how stressed i m, i would just smile. sure it works wonders *smilez* to everyone. the nxt wave of exams is starting after 1 week break. i wouldn't say i m prepared cos i m not. but i have tried to concentrate, tried to studied. no matter how it turn out, at least i have tried. that is the most important :) okayz those with exams ending...jia you for last paper and enjoy yourself after that! for those with exams still, JIA YOU JIA YOU! :)

20th birthday. birthday is a time of appreciation, a time when others show their appreciation and for me to show my appreciation to others. its also a time i reflect upon my past yr and look forward to the nxt yr.

midnight came with a surprise. my biggest present this yr walked right up to me with 2 additional gifts. *sweet* the day started with you and ended with you. thank you.

blk 47 level 4 rocks! thanks ppl for celebrating my birthday with me again! thank you everybody for the few minutes you all spare in the midst of exams to stand ard chatting and eating. for the past 1 yr, all of you really made a difference to my life, forming up one big family! *smilez* all of you are so special! to elaine: really nice surprise from you! *touched* by you! :) cake was nice nice too! :) a wonderful roomie whom i cannot ask for more!

for friends who have always wished or called on my birthday yr after yr even during exams, thank you thank you! all of you are good good friends whom i treasure over the yrs! :) tkians, sss etc etc. i miss all of you! thank you to every other friends who have remembered as well!! whether my ex-tutorial friends, my present tutorial friends, FOC gp mates, the girl from metta camp(nv expect her to wish! glad she remembers me), some new friends along the way, thank you to all! all of you are appreciated as well :)

lastly not forgetting my family for remembering as well :) for my understanding parents and role model bros, thank you :)

the yr was spent fruitfully, i live each day with no regrets. the many folds of happiness are all i remember. the rest are part and parcel of life. i enjoyed my yr and looking forward to this yr. a wonderful way to start the yr. once again. thank you!

for the first time this sem, i missed home. for the first time, i went back to my aunt's place with tears in my eyes but a smile on my face. it sure brought smilez back to my parents' face too. i m finally back to myself at home and it feels great. the nxt challenge is the ensure harmony under one roof. since i have faced and stood up the the previous challenge against myself well (though it was a long internal struggle), this would not be a problem :)

this sem, every tear that i dropped, i grew by an inch. every smile or laughter i gave, came from my heart. the joy was double of what i would otherwise have felt in the past, simply because having difficulties magnify the little joys in the world. i don't wish to have to face the same magnitude of hurdles at a go again but i m sure glad to have learnt so much. life is made up of many steps of growth, just that suddenly i had a spurt of growth. thanks to gh for highlighting that though the circumstances have changed, the people ard me still remain the same. thanks to cl for making me realize just how much i want to be home, where my family is.

for now, i have no more distractions. studies is finally what is on the top of my priority list :)

where the kidnapping was in process. 3 blind folded person taking photos when we donno where the camera is...

the 3 november babies :)

one big happy family-level 4, 47.

wanna say a big THANK YOU to everyone. for all the planning, laughters and fun tonight. n of course apologies for accommodating my very last minute wish to go home. lolz. haas was initially feeling bad that i couldn't join you all tmr. but a really really big surprise tonight! thanks for the early celebration for us *touched* the gifts are all very nice! roomie!! special thanks for your choice of gift and of course the small slips of paper! wahahaha you are super nice la. haha your roomie here feels pai sei now...:) to jen and elaine: HAPPY 20th birthday! :) everybody: jia you wo! :)

i miss home. yet i can't go home.

haven't gone home for 3mths alr. probably wouldn't be able to go home for the nxt 9 mths at least or maybe another 1 yr+. hall becomes a place i recluse to, despite how much i want to be with my family. i m just trying to run away. i know i m in no position to speak of this with so many ppl who are overseas. maybe cos its so near yet so far makes it worse. haha but just let this be a avenue for me to complain since i will not speak about it cos no one will probably understand what i m feeling fully ba. shldn't have spoken about it today cos it just made me think about it again. sometimes i really think i m so lousy. same few issues keep popping up over the sem yet i can't get over them. home, family, studies, health, relationships. maybe cos they overwhelmed me all at the same time. before one is settled, another one comes up. i m trying hard to cope and i will. optimism: i have learnt the hard facts of life so it will build up the strength in me. :)

didn't mean to use this blog as a place for me to complain so much. yet i can't help it. cos if i don't write them down, i'll keep everything to myself and it feels stiffling. if i don't do well this sem, i've only myself to blame. for all the excuses i have come up with. the circumstances i m in shouldn't form a reason for me not to do well. tiredness is just an excuse i m giving myself. the only thing that can get me through is knowing the love and warmth surrounding me. with all these, i have no reasons to complain anymore.

i miss home a lot. but with all the love showered upon me and with my family adapting just as i m. i m not going to complain. despite the change in environment, the people who love me still remains the same. they are my motivation. jia you to myself :) i'll love every inch of my house even more when i step back into it again. *smilez*

with exams jus ard the corner, i've no mood and no inspiration to blog. trying to get my mind down to studying though unfortunately it has a mind of its own. hence, its not doing exactly the things i wanna it to do. haiz now i have no control over my mind. haiz and coupled with it, i must be mad talking all the nonsense. nonetheless i thought that realization is rather interesting. lolz :) a mind should have a mind of its own. wahahah okay i m going a little insane here :)