what am i looking for? i am not clear myself.
what do i like? not exactly clear of it either.
shows how well i know myself. lol.

think i made a simple mistake. but somehow i seem unable to save myself now. no i think its a big mistake. each time, there isn't exactly looking forward or dreading it. its just like another day out having fun. nonetheless i'm glad to be doing things i enjoy and i m comfortable with the company. the efforts are really evident. but right now i m standing on safe grounds. will there be a change? i think so. partly cos of my mistake and the recent things that happened.


was i waiting? i think i was. was is the key word here. but is it a was? seems like i m having more than one problem at the same time. no maybe its only one. the problem lies in me. ai ya....wat a totally nonsensical post. i know i want to post sth yet don't want ppl to understand. haha so my point is to confuse ppl too? i donno. maybe...jus ignore this. where are you for me to talk to? probably jus another thinking out loud post. on a lighter note: wee! seems like more ppl don't mind coming down to ntu once in a long while! that means more ppl to have meals with me too in ntu! :)

21km run.
an attempt. a challenge. an experience. i didn't complete my run. nonetheless, there is a sense of personal satisfaction at just being able to try and be part of the crowd. lol. run 10km, walked 6km then completed it with another 5km run. :)

got up at 4:55am thanks to a wake up call for being late. supposed to reach by 4:45! got ready and left home in 5mins (impressed by my speed!) tied hair, wore shoes on the cab there. lol taxi uncle must have realized how late i was! wat lousy impression i leave on ppl...always being late whenever i meet her. tst shall not let this carry on.

think i saw a fren, ian. but i m not too sure. cos i only caught 30% of his face and 100% of his backview cos he zoomed past me even before i could react. think i saw 1 or 2 familar faces but i guess none of them noticed me. but most of the time, i wasn't even thinking of anything. amazed by how the 3hrs plus passed, runnning.

saw a gp of cheerleaders. impressed by them being high and their ability to keep cheering the ppl running on despite being up so early. someone beside me was thinking out loud wondering how much they are paid to do that. wellz, that did cross my mind too. but after chatting with zhan yuin, it could be for publicity too.

enjoyed the morning breeze along the expressway and ecp. saw a beautiful view of the city in the wee hrs of the morning. trust me, it keeps one calm and relaxed. witnessed the arrival of morning while working out.

running alongside the ppl motivates everyone else to continue running. the distance didn't seem as intimidating as it sounds. it would have been even more frightening if i was running the distance alone. i noticed a lot, learned a lot. saw hearing-impaireds running with their noticable shirts on. noticed lots of different types of shirts. saw a gp of OCS ppl running and cheering tgt. basically, a learning experience! :)

another week of sch flew past. can't rmb much about last week. missed out on this yr's 9-5. pai sei for not going despite knowing all the organizers cos of the run and being sick. attempts at cooking in hall. have been successful! our signature soup gained praises from neighbours! fish, eggs with longbeans, spagetti are all yummy :) right now, its time to hit the beds again! :) almost forgot to mention thanks for coming down to ntu ulu land for dinner with me. sometimes we take certain actions or people for granted. but shall not from now...

fri dinner and dance for hall 9:)supposed to dress up. wellz, forgot bout it. nonetheless manage to get dressed in a somewhat presentable looking set of clothes. :) though there was a mismatch of shoes. our company for the journey to glasshall.

the 47 girls and fionne :) haas didn't take lots of photos since no camera. kbox till 4am with 47 ppl and seniors! wah an experience! had fun jus singing along with the rest. n yy sings really well too!

been updating the blog a little more frequently these days. perhaps jus wanna pen down thoughts.

in jus one night, i have realized how fortunate i m, to come to know some good frenz upon whom i'll do whatever i can in my means for them. it was just a simple gesture, yet i m feeling gratified and guility. maybe cos the efforts on my part has been zero, yet u have constantly looked out for vacancies for me. it was really just a small gesture, yet it speaks more than words. saying thank you alone is not enough. nonetheless that's the only thing i say now. thank you. jus as i have received one tonight for jus simply listening. on the contrary, i wld prefer to say don't thank me, because when the time arises, i wld seek for u all to listen to me too. all of us need a listening ear. wellz, i m always ard to listen to anyone whoever approaches me to talk :) to the 2 buddies (u shld know who u r) cheers!

maybe it all boils down to how much we expect out of others. i think having less expectations of the other party wld make us happier easier. wellz at least that is my motto in life. to give, yet do not expect anything back. maybe that was why i chose to be an easily-contented-gal :) but all these are jus my opinions, so anyone can beg to differ :)

how words may hurt unwittingly.

a fren's blog jogged my memory of being chided once by my bro for speaking without thinking. sometimes we don't mean to hurt others, jus that we spoke certain words without thinking, acting on impulse. wellz, hope that i didn't hurt anyone cos of the choice of words recently. nonetheless, taking this opportunity, to say i m sorry if i did. haas, and do be frank with me k, if my choice of words have been wrong! :)

realized jus how much thoughts goes thru one's mind daily. sometimes, it jus flashes past and be forgotton, yet some stays for long, refusing to leave the mind. jus some random thoughts. finally, it dawned upon me what is hall life all about during supper on mon night. it is jus simply about enjoying one another's company, thru sitting and chatting. there wasn't a specific topic during the senior gathering, yet everyone was jus comfortable with sitting ard and talking. perhaps this is called bonding. lolz another wat to put it is that we r trying to relax :)

this sem, i've taken a step out of my comfort zone. took a couple of subjects without knowing anyone in the class. think it do make me more independent ba. was really glad that in the end, i found ppl i know in the class-found a long lost pri sch good fren! haha surprising our parents rmb each other's parents too! think that's all for the random thoughts now :)

first week of sch has been more eventful than expected. maybe cos hasn't settled down for studying yet...so had quite a lot of fun in 1 week! though i did attempt to read my lecture notes...:)

food has probably been the focus this week. had our first ice-cream supper to start off the semester on mon :) though many were sick ba...nonetheless, it didn't stop us from eating! spent wed afternoon shopping with tutorial frenz at vivo after lecture. a pity that i couldn't join them for dinner though it was promised long ago...haiz...really haven't catch up with u all for a long time! that afternoon passed too fast, and didn't manage to see all of u! went for steamboat with fellow gp 3 programmers at marina bay instead. woah full squd turned up! so i was glad i did go, otherwise earnest wld niam like mad. haas....phew luckily he didn't cancel the dinner!

caught 'knocked up' on national day. had a good laugh. the 2 kids in the show are so adorable! lolz. eh...a bit unsensored too. no wonder it is m18. nonetheless, its an alright show. found a ben n jerry outlet with nice ambience and deco! a little inconvenient to get there though...oops think i don't really know where it is in the first place...

ended off my weekday with kayaking after lecture. a bit of madness on both our part. went all the way to Macritchi to kayak after lecture lugging all our txtbooks with us! despite the inconvenience in getting there on public transport and the constant chiding on making that decision, having the whole reservoir to ourselves that afternoon diffuses whatever sianess we had :)

looking forward to bbq later at aunt's hse! :)

national day preview.

sth that i had to blog about though it was over really long ago. never been a fan of national day parade but this yr's national day is special because it is held on a platform surrounded by waters. being able to be part of the crowd makes the whole atmostphere really different though it was only a preview.

the use of the waters, laser effects, fires, stunts and fireworks was stunning and really do impresses me lots. an eye-opener to the normal parades. but jus one pity that i forgot to bring the sd card along with the camera. took limited photos but will upload it soon :)

hall foc 2007.

as a programmer, i've learnt lots bout the running of camps. most stuff have been blogged by fellow neighbours so shall not elaborate on them. not an easy task, yet i did enjoy myself despite surviving on only 4 hrs of sleep daily. though there are stoning moments, we worked well as a team. special credits goes to our mcp who are constantly getting us to bond. the laughters amidst the camp days, from those dao games to jokes helped each day to pass quickly. a different experience compared to a freshie last yr. chao ji programmer!...programmer so good! a slogon used once a yr :)

simpsons movie :)

funny. :) good for laughters movie! thanks to xl, had a really budget meal and movie pass with all the coupons u had. haas...that gave me room for spending on shopping though. a day out for total relaxation. lunch, movie, shopping :)

finally. reflections.

3 mths holiz has come to an end. been a fulfilling holiday. spent a long time working, yet the rest of the time was spent catching up with old frenz. though it could have been better, i have no regrets. lots of problems cropped up this holiz, yet one by one it was settled. the ppl ard me helped me get back to my usual self, to not dwell on any unhappiness. sch will offically start in 4 hrs. so preparation starts now. notes printing sessions again :)