November has been a blessed month.

recalling the few surprises i had, thank you for remembering. that's the best gift :) i have nv been the most entertaining or most noisy among the crowd, yet i am most thankful and blessed to meet some really great pals along my life.

i love the friends i met in office, the lunch kakis and support who will bring me through my audit life. at this point, we have full strength though we all know that this group will shrink slowly. melaka had been a short 2 days but enough to tire us. i rmb the food, the laughters and the drunkards we had.

2 months had passed since work began. it hasn't been fast, neither has it been slow. the job i'll most probably be stuck in forever is a good exposure and a starting point. at a low point in time, i almost wanted to call quits to this client, leaving it for good. but i am unwilling to leave this good learning ground. together with my buddies on this job, we decided to hang in there together. though i don't think i make a good auditor, i'll still stick on for as long as i can learn, hopefully 3 years. made many mistakes along the way especially since i am quite careless and i do wonder if it will affect my appraisal. *smilez* surprisingly, i have managed to be kept quite happy at work despite my lacking social life. indeed a workaholic i am becoming. i am totally loving this long weekend!

Work.

i realized how difficult it is to disassociate oneself from work. work is never-ending and the number of times i've brought home work to do is uncountable. i am tired not from work, but from the difficulty of sleeping on certain nights. there was a night i close my eyes and all i saw was excel spreadsheets. scary.

been entrusted with tasks to complete. what makes it tough isn't the nature of the work but trying to understand what or how to do. i spend half the day figuring out all by myself all the terms used in banks and understanding the operations and regulations surrounding it. it is quite taxing and stressful esp when i am totally clueless and the entire bank operation is so big. at least, i am quite happy to be learning.

however, i realized how unsatisfied i am on the quality of work produced that results in moodiness at times. my only consolation is the lunches. *smilez* where all the gossips, all the swearing, all the complains come out.

much as i would want to be happier, many nights i come home tired with no energy to chat or become irritating whiny. hay ya! i need to get back to being myself with more energy! HAI YA! KACHA! happy happy, wee wee, smiley smiley, heehee. i think i am going mad! i am so glad the weekends are here again!

Memorable weekend.

Been a long long time since i stayed up for the entire night cos since year 2 of hall i began to believe sleeping is very important. haha. so what was the reason for staying up? MJ-ing and wii-ing. wii is fun at chalet! quite a new experience playing with people i don't even know. *smilez* i think i am in love with wii-tennis though i m totally very lousy at it. wii-bowling was super funny and i learnt a stunt from gh's sis to score high results. being her night, she was super high.

next was mj. haha to me, it was a session for me to lose money to all the pros around me. they are super zai and my wins are so small compared to theirs. each time i only win 40c per person. Their win was like $6 per person. wa. totally got thrashed but learnt quite a bit. slowly slowly learn...

finally the game ended at 5:30. travelled all the way from the jurong east to east coast park with the hope of catching sun rise but the weather was too cloudy. nonetheless, we had breakfast at Macs. both of us were so tired, we took a short nap in the car at ecp. haha wells, i literally slept through and didn't mind the unglamourous sight. lolz.

my senior asked: are you stressed? i said: no. but i think i am masking my stress. work is beginning. thankfully i have a very nice senior.