From the top of the bridge above the railway and highway near my house at 8am today, i shouted out. it was a random crazy thing that i always wanted to do.

It started with a short run around my house which i couldn't sustain arising from a tummyache halfway. hence, i walked the rest of the journey home where i had to pass through a bridge with minimal pedestrians. randomly, an idea struck me to stop and look quietly at the cars zooming below me while feeling the wind blowing against my face. then, i shouted, probably still shy of shouting at the top of my lungs, but nonetheless it is a nice feeling of relieve. there are minimal people around me and those that could actually hear me probably wouldn't be bothered to stop me while the cars zooming by can't hear me with their windows rolled up.

I have tendency to do random things whenever i feel like doing. be it drenching myself intentionally in a downpour, singing loudly in the back of my dad's lorry in the past, shouting on a bridge, lying alone on henderson waves observing or dancing and skipping along a path are just one of the few things i had done. these are all very simple things but many times i felt shy in public. These are the simple things i enjoy in the midst of life.

i want to maintain my weekly morning run :)

so far, life has been manageable. the many ntu grads in the company makes working life much more enjoyable knowing that many peers are in the same shoe as i am.

did my first overtime till 1:30am on one of the training days. woah quite an experience working so late with the entire team of ard 10ppl each rushing. i foresee more of such days coming, wellz at least i am prepared. frankly, i do not know how long can i last but i'll definately try. *smilez* my only motivation is that i am here to learn, to learn as much as i can.

it is getting harder and harder to concentrate during tuition, especially when it's after work and after a day of ot-ing so late into the night. seriously, i can't wait for tuition to end nxt weekend cos i think i am becoming a lousy teacher by each session.

Finally, i spent a day at home resting at night. yes, i love it and i love it lots. finally, i looked at the photos taken with the hall ppls upon graduation. finally, i want to say a big thank you to the ppl and friends i met in hall over the last 3 years cos they made life in NTU one of the most memorable times i have. have i ever thank this group of friends properly? haha maybe not. yes so here it is, thank you.

wishing each and every one of my friends a successful career and life ahead as many embarked on our journey into the working life. zz i am so randam...but i meant it :)

I lost my first overseas opportunity for my first audit assignment cos i was scared and couldn't give a definate reply on the spot. It came too impromptu on the first day of proper work and i had no time to think. It was a great opportunity that many would have dreamt of. haiz i realized now that opportunities wait for no one. Cast away the fear NOW and GRAB IT the next time. i am scared of taking planes but i know i can't afford to keep this fear if i really wanna go far and enjoy audit.

i promise myself. this will be the first and last time i let such opportunity slip by. the next time, i would say a resounding YES. but i know the next opportunity may be a long long time later. but there is no point thinking about the lost opportunity.

i thought i would be given time to consider, but i had lost the opportunity already.

i am so slow.

got bored of korean dramas and at a lost of what HK dramas to watch. watched a few shows here and there but there wasn't one that i really enjoyed. till...i thought of FRIENDS. haha okays it made me laughed so much in a short period of time. definately something i need now..haha thumbs up :)

away from working life. a 1 week break before proper work starts. there are so many things i wanna say but somehow i can't seem to express anything properly.

work isn't all about a fixed 8hrs job. it's about the enjoyment and achievement that'll make each day fruitful. the last few weeks, i didn't mind the lots of ot-ing, the short lunch break or the pay. i was there to do my best for the job without regards for anything else. probably what was on my mind was all about how the small me can contribute as much as i can without making any careless mistake. i wonder what was the reason that drives me. i am not sure myself. at the end of it, i know i was happy.

had a short weekend getaway to melaka :) *smilez* i like backpacking! i like backpacking! stayed in a simple nice clean hostel luckily with no mosquitoes for that night. unfortunately, went during the wrong period of time and many tourist attractions wasn't open. afterall being in malaysia over hari raya wasn't a good choice..haha. explored on feet melaka city and circled it at least 3 times. small and buzzling with tourists indeed it is.

what i remembered most was the eating, eating and eating. ate every 3hrs trying out the various food that it is the highlight for the trip. lol. i realized i like to have everything planned properly, not adventurous enough to book the accommodation over in melaka and insisted on booking late online on fri night.

sat: left home at 5am after 2hrs of sleep and reached melaka city by 11am. lost while trying to find the hostel but found accomodation for the 2nd night and ate our first dish of nice beef noodles :) it wasn't too bad that we walked too far either. toured the city, sightsee a few landmarks, chengdo dessert. yummy. shopped, massaged, ate the famous chicken rice balls and walk ard chinatown before rain arrived.

sun: simple dim sum breakfast, a jap backpacker intro us to a nearby market, morning hike up to fortress, nonya laksa and dessert, zhi char lunch, shopping since many tourist attractions were closed, A&W-ed, secret recipe as teabreak, seafood dinner at a ulu place, stingray supper at chinatown. figured our way back hostel based on instincts. backpacking is definately fun. i love melaka, a small town. a simple and affordable way to spend a long weekend. working life is different, but it'll be a challenge worth going through with smiles. after a week break, i will be ready :)

PHOTOS UPDATE!
a bit slow, but really had to thank my bro and his fren for taking a day off his busy schedule for some outdoor photo shoot without anything in return. they may not be the best photos taken but we are all very contented with it.
mirror image.

at crossroad.

4 directional.

my bro's fav.

his fren's fav.

our grandfather road where the photographers and ourselves risked our lives for the photo.

symmetry. thank you for the editing done too.

i like the sky! i realize nice photographs depend partly on the weather too...too bad we didn't choose a really good day.

running

elaine, i wanna the hall ones too! haha...

random. haagan das ice-cream at $3! yummy yummy.

Birthday Celebration 2009.

one of the few days i planned a day full of activities...*smilez* did a little more this year, maybe cos i am afraid once auditing starts, i wouldn't be able. hope you enjoyed it.

hightlighting some selective events for the day with photos. dinner at werner's oven! *smilez* yeah made a right choice for someone who loves german sausage.

a special homemade 'cake' 3 layered chocolate, peanut and orea. thought it was quite nice :)

only 2 candles? nopez...the rest of the 22 candles are...tata! here...
happy 24th birthday!

ended my job in standard chartered officially. it had been an excellent learning experience esp in meeting the people there. learnt a lot from boss, manager and their wealth of experience. i still have a long way to go in the corporate world. less than 1 more mth to go...now i don't want the day to come to start work...

sometimes selfishness arises from circumstances but the feeling of burden is heavy. maybe making right choices at the start would have been better. learning

came and left a footprint.

came wanting to leave some pictures but blogger seems to dislike the idea and didn't give me an opportunity. hence, decided to leave some thoughts instead. i never thought i was pampered but i realized i am. from not exactly doing housework at home nowadays to creating commotion at home in a bid to convince my mum. but over the incident, i learnt to compromise. travelling is a luxury, something that i know my parents do not fully agree with especially since they came from an era where they worked their entire life upon supporting the family. hence, i have decided to take a step back and not always demand for things that would upset my parents.

last week was a super hectic week where one of the kids have exams approaching and tuition frequency increased to 3 times a week, effectively i had 5 sessions in 6 days. everyday after work, it was tuition. by friday, i was so shag. what made things worse was that i seem to have troubles sleeping every night.

i have yet to say a special thank you to my brother and his friend who took one day of his time off his busy schedule to take grad shoots from my friends and i! the camera may not have been the best, but i believe all my friends are very happy with the photos and the editing done. some pictures do show the character of the photographer.

this week wld mark the end of my 3 months in standard chartered as a temporary staff but it doesn't mean i have decided to stop working, only changing my working environment. i have learnt a lot from the people, from the things i do. there are so much more i've to learnt from the staffs who each have so much more experience. they have been excellent boss, excellent advisors and great collegues. i had a couple of lunch treats, some of whom i have lunch for the first and last time, yet they treated me to restaurants. They taught me, what goes around comes around. not expecting anything in return, they only asks me to rmb to treat my intern or temp staff next time. they are indeed one of the warmest people i have seen. maybe i have grown more attached to the people here than i realized. i wonder if the offer my boss asked to join them would still be remembered in the years to come. gee, but i realize now why they are so keen to get me on board initially...cos they get referral fees! *smilez* nonetheless, i do enjoy the life of working 9am to 6pm daily in this working environment with minimal ot-ing yet good pay. indeed standard chart was my dream bank and it still is. i enjoyed working in the global wealth department much more than i realized. i enjoyed looking at the various funds and using bloomberg occassionally. *smilez* despite being the last week of work, i can't say enough thank you to the boss who still send me to another bloomberg training on fund analysis.