A slow jog.

Finally revived running after a period of absence. Recently, there was much motivation to run as i could no longer stand the growing tummy. There was a long break of 3-4months since SCB run last Dec, always giving the excuse that work is keeping me busy and the inappropriate timing after work. Yet recently, i set exercising as the top priority, determined to flatten the tummy.

I remember how unhealthy i felt at the first run, literally feeling my stomach throbing up and down though i tried consoling myself it was the effect after dinner. Had a quick swim over the weekends before this week's run. shiok was the word to describe. it made me feel that life is a little more meaningful than working, sleeping and eating everyday. Unlike my previous runs where my focus would be on keeping a steady breathing pattern, this run was to clear my head. I thought and reflected much during the run, not concentrating on my legs or my breathing, it was a breeze and before i know it, i was nearing home. Though admittedly a very slow run.

Thinking carefully over my choices, my goals and the 9 mths of work that passed, i can clearly set out to say i have not regretted joining audit and definately no regrets in joining my current company. Definately i have learnt a lot, definately met many people and obstacles along the way. But all in all, it was an excellent learning process. Though i still have second thoughts over banking audit, but i will stand by it. after all the industries i am in, i hope to say that auditing is the same everywhere. we can't run away from its applications, we can't run away from the processes. 3 years is my ideal for learning sufficiently, but somehow this ideal doesn't seem applicable anymore. It is time to build up my real dreams, simple yet self-fulfulling dreams. Corporate culture may not be suitable for me, politics are things i do not want to mingle with. I have yet to find my exact fit, but i definately hope to find out soon :)

my takeaway from a friend's farewell.
i have a dream to chase.