Perhaps I m trying too hard. I wonder if these attempts are worth it, or perhaps its jus my stupidity.

Wondering whether I made a stupid choice, but it doesn’t matter cos I have alr chosen. Sometimes, I really hate last-minute plans, last minute changes. Feeling terrible, feeling upset. Felt like talking, but suddenly I donno who to look for.

So much frustration, so much changes, so much disappointment. In the end, I have chosen not to go for sth I know I will enjoy, instead going for sth that I m afraid, unprepared, worried. Yes, it’s my personal loss. Nonetheless, I couldn’t reject the request from an 8-yr-long friend. Her frustration, her tiredness, her hopes were all reflected thru her voice. Rationally, I should not have acceded to her request but I acted irrationally. I have decided to stop looking forward to going to sentosa. 3 opportunities lost this holiz. Perhaps due to my bad day, some harmless words sting a lot.

In the end, I have chosen the easiest way out to vent my feelings. Its lucky to be a girl at times, at least, I have no reason to control my tears. perhaps i m thinking too much, perhaps i m just being emotional, perhaps its just another bad day. moving on...